Surely I'm not the only person hung up on making changes in his or her life. I feel like I'm constantly chasing meaning or purpose. I play a lot roles in the repertoire of life from mother and wife, to community do-gooder to devoted Board Member. I consider myself a Christian woman and fierce friend to many!
Even still, I'm having a difficult time finding my calling in life. My family, of course, takes priority over all other roles. But, when the girls are grown and no longer at home, I will be left with a big gaping hole in my life. Parenthood is a fleeting occupation. While my marriage and my daughters will always be my greatest accomplishments in life, there will come a time when my role as caretaker will fade.
The work I've done over the years has never defined me as a person. I was never a waitress, or an administrative assistant, or a CNA, and my current role as Audit Manager defines me even less. These roles provided me with very little to no fulfillment, outside of a paycheck of course.
I'm not very good at cooking, although I'm working on it.
Photography requires time and equipment.
Fitness is a hateful cloud always looming over my head.
Making new friends is daunting to say the least (must be my resting-bitch-face).
While food and photography and fitness and friends (among other things) are near-and-dear to my heart, they don't necessarily give me purpose in life. I am in search for a purpose that could carry me well into my later years and beyond.
I AM good at writing; I quite enjoy writing. Feeling and emotion is hugely expressed when written down and I pray that perhaps there is an audience out there who will find my words empathetic and relateable.
I write this blog as the barer of many, many roles. My experiences stem from those roles and I have learned a great deal from them. I have been given opportunities, I have met amazing men and women, I have grown as a mother, wife, friend, daughter, sister, and woman.
My life is not full of excitement on a daily basis and there is no clashing tragedy that gives way to my every thought and move in life. But, as we all know very well, the many roles we play in life give way to experiences worth sharing. This roller coaster of a life is interesting and rewarding and I want to share it. I want to write about it and I pray that the reader takes away some sort of value and that he or she relates to my words as if they were his or her own.
And so, my new role (and a closet-role for the time being) is Mommy-blogger, record keeper, curator of photographs, and autobiographer!
Ready. Set. Go.
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