I'm in a Rut

Is it just me, or is it incredibly easy to find oneself back at ground zero, constantly starting over? This dejavu can be found in dieting or exercise--you lose 5 lbs., gain it back, and start over. It can be found in my kids bedrooms-I spend three hours cleaning it every month because clearly my expectations of room maintenance are far too high.

On an even higher level for me, I find myself repeating the same feelings of dissatisfaction. I feel like I have no goals and when I do find the motivation to set them, I move on a week later. And then, I sit down--because once again I'm feeling motivated to write and blog, and I type the same old, stale words. It's a vicious cycle of motivate, fail, repeat and all I'm doing is treading water--and let me tell you, I tire easily!

I'm in a rut.

And so I've recently turned to some power house women for advice--or more so, I listen to them speak on topics surrounding marriage, relationships, goals, motivation, God, compassion, the pod cast category list is endless really! I've been reading Rachel Hollis and Jen Hatmaker--women who were here and some how, permanently, broke free of this cycle. I've joined book clubs and even started a health and fitness accountability group with my best girl friends.

And I'm still in a rut. I'm underwhelmed, unmotivated, and I might go as far to say that I'm a little depressed.

Where do I go from here? It's a struggle to motivate myself, even with the help of these motivational speakers and my friends, to make any sort of change, to gain any sort of traction, to just get off of my can and make the changes that only I can make. What is missing? How do I break this cycle of disappointment? How can I emerge stronger, wiser, better than I have been? How do I reach the potential that I know I'm capable of? What is holding me back? What am I afraid of?

Plain and simple, I'm in a gosh-darn rut!